Today I met with Ashley at the Rush. Very athletic. I assume that she is a basketball player. Not that she is tall, she just has that athletic build and walk. We went over paperwork and set goals for weight loss. I'd like to get down to 150 again at the minimum. If I could get down to 125-135 range that would be good too, but I'll be happy to get down to 150. She did some tests to see where I am physically. My BMI is 40.3. Ewwe. And this little machine came up with a number of 48% fat. Not exactly sure what that is about, but I know it can't be good!
She had me do some basic stuff like walk on a treadmill for a few minutes, do some squats, plank pose to see how core is, pull down some weights. That kind of thing. Next time she's going to make up a plan so I can go through a routine when I go in. I would love to hire her as a trainer, I'm sure the motivation would keep me on track, I just can't afford it. This will have to be a solo thing and hopefully a few sessions will get me going in the right direction. I was pretty pathetic, my right knee and hip started protesting on the treadmill after about 3 minutes. But hey, at least I'm trying now. Our next session is Monday morning.
Meanwhile I'm going to do some cardio, probably on the treadmills, so I can build up to 30 min sessions, then 45 min. Everyone should be able to walk at a rate of 4.0 miles an hour for 30 minutes. I was struggling for 3 miles an hour for 6 minutes. Pretty sorry I know. Just goes to show you how much I need to work out. I'll get there. Tomorrow I'll push myself through it. She suggested breaking it up into 10 or 15 minutes. So tomorrow I'm going to get 1/2 hour in, just take a couple breaks between. This weight needs to come off.
One good thing is that they have kids classes on Mondays and Thursdays. Since tomorrow is Thursday, I'll be taking them in tomorrow evening for the kiddy class and I'll work out on the treadmill while they have their class.
I plan on taking a Zumba class on Saturday morning. Sounds like fun. I am so incredibly uncoordinated so it should be a mess. Hopefully I won't trip over myself too much or run into too many people. My core personality is to shy away from people. I work at home, before that I took on-line college classes from home. I feel claustrophobic around groups of people, a gnawing sense of panic. Normally I would absolutely HATE the idea of joining a class and being completely uncoordinated around other people, but right now I don't really care. I need to get myself right, and honestly, who is going to be looking? Everyone else is probably more concerned with hitting their own steps. And if they gawk at the clutzy fat girl, who cares? Right? Well, I'll see if I feel the same way after my first class! :)
In an effort to motivate myself, I took some pictures. I generally shy away from mirrors, but getting this honest look of how my body is... I can only describe it as dismaying. I look like I have a watermelon in my belly. Seriously, I look pregnant. Very pregnant. This huge belly takes up 1/2 of my lap. That is real-estate meant for kids to sit on and cuddle up. But they don't have the room because my belly is in the way. And my arms! The fat drips in sloping bags down my arms. My thighs are huge mushy lumps that sort of smash together almost all the way to my knees. It disgusts me. I keep looking at these pictures wondering how I let myself get this way. This is where I do not want to be any more. This is what I am going to change.
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